Accepting Life

Life is a journey… or something like that. The hardest part for me? Accepting that I am alone. I am a single mom and that means all the responsibilities are mine, and mine alone. There is no one else here to help with anything. It sucks, it’s stressful, and most days I feel like crying.

I come home exhausted but there is no rest. Meals have to be made, things need cleaning up, the cat needs care, all on top of my son’s homework and keeping him on track until bedtime. Unless you’ve been in these shoes, you couldn’t possibly understand the level of exhaustion a single parent deals with on a daily basis.

I had a revelation or epiphany or whatever last weekend. I read something that said “happiness starts when we accept life as it is and not as we think it should be”. I am alone. I have to accept that I am alone. I have to embrace that I am alone. My responsibilities are my own and no one is going to provide assistance. I said it out loud “I am alone” and felt a little better.

We all have to get to the point where we accept life as it is. Whether or not we’re happy with it is a different story. We’re all only one decision away from a new life. But the first step is accepting our truth and our reality. Once we do that, we are free to make any choice we want to change our lives.

I have started making changes… and we’ll see what happens from there.

Coconut Butter Shrimp

Lol! Need to try the bank account suggestion 🙂

In my attempts to eat healthier, I did some experimenting in my kitchen with coconut oil. I know, I’m late to this party but better late than never!

I first tried coconut oil with my scrambled eggs. Not an altogether horrible turnout. It did have a distinct flavor that was sort of perfumey. While eating my perfume eggs, I decided to try this with shrimp, given the popularity of coconut fried shrimp I figured this would be a good match.

Let me make it very clear first that I hate coconut. I do not eat it in meals, desserts, or any other place. I tried coconut water, coconut milk, raw coconut and cooked. I do not like it. But I used the oil to make lip gloss & lotion bars for Christmas and I really liked the smell those things had. I know coconut oil is super healthy, so I made the leap and I’m so glad I did!

Basically, you need equal parts butter and coconut oil. Seasonings only consist of salt and crushed red pepper.

Put half the butter & half the coconut oil in the pan and let it melt.

Add your shrimp and season with the salt and pepper.

Flip the shrimp when the first side is pink and add the remaining butter and coconut oil.

Cook until done which should really only be a few minutes. Shrimp cook incredibly fast which makes this another winner in my book.

Final product is something very tasty. Enjoy!

Final plate!

Ingredients

  • 1 TBSP Butter, divided
  • 1 TBSP Coconut oil, divided
  • Salt to taste
  • Crushed red pepper to taste
  • ½ pound of Shrimp (I used size 26-30)

Directions

  1. Melt half the butter and half the coconut oil in a skillet on low to medium heat.
  2. When fully melted, add the shrimp in a single layer.
  3. Season the shrimp with salt and crushed red pepper.
  4. When the first side of the shrimp is pink, flip them over.
  5. Add remaining butter and coconut oil.
  6. Cook until done (several more minutes on side 2).

What do you think?

Fibro Flares

It has been quite a while since I last posted. I’ve been super busy then a fibro flare happened (and is still happening!). This resulted in quite a few 7:30/8pm bedtimes. The exhaustion, fatigue, and pain are overwhelming. In the midst of the flare, I decided to do some research on fibro-sensitive diets (since scrolling on my tablet is about all the energy I had) and came across many interesting articles that suggest gluten-free.

The last time I went gluten-free, I suffered carb flu very badly. Because I’m working through a flare, I didn’t think it would be a good idea to add that on top. So, what have I decided to do? Well, I’m slowly weaning the carbs out. I started with soda, my morning biscuits, and lunchtime rice. This presented a few challenges since I usually have sausage & biscuits for breakfast every morning and a piece of baked chicken with rice for lunch. I can prepare the biscuits ahead, they travel well and only need a quick reheat in the toaster oven at work. Plus I never reheat the chicken, just the rice. However, I really want to feel better. You have no idea how badly I want to feel better.

I decided to still have my sausage, only in crumbles, not in that yummy white gravy (it’s flour-based, blah). I’ve been eating scrambled eggs & sausage for breakfast followed by a mid-morning snack of an avocado with lemon juice. For lunch, I’ve been eating a hamburger patty and salad followed by blackberries & sunflower seeds.

Needless to say, I’m starving by the time I get home. You don’t know how filling carbs are until you don’t eat them anymore. Today is only day 2 so I’m hoping this gets better as the days go by. This is forcing me to expand my taste buds though and I ended making the most delicious shrimp Sunday evening. I will post the recipe in another thread.

I’m curious to see how this turns out and I’m hoping for the best – that I have more energy, less pain, less fatigue, and I can actually do things again!

To all my fellow fibro warriors out there… Keep fighting, friends. This really sucks. I get you. I feel you. I’m proud of everything we manage to get done every day. Even if it’s just washing your hair – small victories add up.